I want to love the sun. It gives light. Light helps me see the way. I want to love the dark. It allows me to see the stars. I stop to reflect and observe the stars. When it is daytime, I am on my way, always on the move. During the night, I rest and contemplate. Some thoughts I pushed aside during the day may resurface at night. I don’t want to see everything. I don’t want to process it all. I just want to keep moving. I want the sun to be out again.
Recently, my night thoughts are leading me to accept that human beings will let you down- at some point. It was meant to be that way, and I am supposed to take it in well. After all, I will also err and will expect forgiveness. But what if someone hurts you consciously and they just hope that you won’t find out. Why should I commit to share my life with you? Why should I, with the knowledge that you have the capacity to err? All of my life can’t and shouldn’t be tied up in that arrangement.
I wish we would forever remain young; probably what I mean is that I wish all humanity would be childlike. Maybe then, mistakes could be overlooked and forgiven easier and faster. Does a child ever do or say hurtful things? Sure they do. They are usually remorseful sooner. They also move on sooner when an adult wrongs them. We should remain childlike. This thought is very ambitious I know… Adults have to deal with global warming decisions, we have conferences to attend, and we have research to do and presentations to make. We are always on the move, pushing and shoving.
It sometimes takes darkness to make us stop. It will usually be sickness or the loss of a loved one. That dark moment that causes most people to stop and forces them to reflect. There must be a higher power. Some power that is greater than the darkness we so often experience – a great force that allows light and dullness. The kind of authority that puts everything in sync with the order of things, the type that causes everyone to understand their power is limited. You would have to yield, give in and admit inadequacy.
So today as I walked towards my workplace the thoughts that came to mind made me appreciate moments and not look at all of life in totality. I will just take in the moments. I will enchant my soul with creation. I will allow the universe to give me its best. The birds of the air and the clouds in the sky will teach me to hum my hallelujahs and greet all and sundry. Nothing shall spoil my daytime bliss.
In the evening, I reminisce on the life that I helped to bring into this world. My darling baby, I smile, life is beautiful after all, and her childlike spirit teaches me not to dislike the dark. Morning will come. I am not all wrong. Her life is witness that morning comes. You see, we choose what to feed our souls. Some things are too painful to tuck away. But why not live in the moment? Cherish every breath and take in your lovely surroundings. If nothing suffices, look at the skies, stare at it all you want because it’s as plain as day. It doesn’t lie, always there, giving you hints of rain or shine. Take a moment.